THOUGHTS

It’s been more than a year that’s passed.
I still haven’t forgotten about the times we’ve spent.
It was good. But.
The more I read your blog,
the less I know you.

I know I meant nothing to you.
You also meant nothing much to me.
To be able to get over you within a year,
pales in comparison with her.

Her,
with the beautiful skin,
with the cutest smile,
with the charming laughter.

Why is it that I cannot forget the way she walks?
Why is it that I cannot forget the way her sweaty palms feel?
Why is it that at the sight of her, my heart races?

Yet at the sight of you all I want to do is get away
to forget this sadness I accidentally dropped into.

Even though you had become the one most beautiful girl in my life, she has stayed there way longer.

When will I ever meet a charming lady?
A lady a class above the others?
For the streets are filled with nothing but girls.
And silly boys chasing skirts.

Is she different from the rest?
Is the number of past relationships an indicator of one’s relationship maturity?
Or is it just me becoming overly cynical after what i’ve been through?

But what’s done is done.
You’re no longer the most beautiful.
Just another girl in the streets.
One which I hope I have nothing to do with anymore.

Posted on June 1, 2013

THOUGHTS~

Suddenly i am ostracised from all of you.. I can’t do anything about it anyway.. This gaping hole in the middle of my heart hurts.. All of you are having fun now.. I didn’t want to go so as to not spoil the mood.. I have no one to talk to anymore.. Standing here looking at you love someone so much.. I guess i don’t want to see him either.. I don’t want to end up crying when i go.. I guess you are way happier than when you were with me now.. Sigh.. A mess of thoughts.. I hate you..

Posted on December 21, 2012

Girls…..

You’re gonna run? that’s kinda ironic seeing how you can hardly do any physically demanding stuff.. since you said it like that, i’ll take things in my stride and run next to you.. push me away? a bit hard ah.. the best you can do is to ignore me.. as if i have not gone through worse.. i’ll wait for you till you are out of breathe from running, pick you up and carry you on my back and continue.. i have said it before and i’ll say it again, i will always love you.. this little bit of pain is nothing.. being able to tolerate pain is all i can do though.. though seeing you cry is the most heart wrenching of it all..

anyways, happy birthday black rabbit.. hope you’re going to enjoy your day:)

Posted on October 7, 2012